I read a quote about a month ago that said something along the lines of ‘anxiety is living in the future, depression is living in the past and true happiness can be found in the present’ I can’t comment on how true that is with regards to depression as that’s never where my anxiety went but the quote itself really struck a cord with me.
Its funny isn’t it how just a few words can change your outlook. I read that quote and it was like a light bulb went off, I thought what is the point?! What is the point of all this worry? It isn’t achieving anything, in fact its actually a totally counter productive way of thinking. I was already aware that I was spending a huge proportion of my day worrying about what ‘might’ happen. To the outside world I looked ‘together’, totally in control but my mind was absorbed up by every single ‘what if’ scenario. So, I made the decision right there and then to make myself become more present, to really just exist in that moment and enjoy it for what it is. It took some work, my mind was so used to racing but every time it would wonder I’d focus on bringing it right back to now, with practice, it became habit.
I did this by making a conscious effort at least once a week to be outside in nature, to feel the wind in my face, to just breath and be free, even if it was for just a few hours the feeling that freedom gave me was incredible, it was empowering. Finally, I felt some fragment of control, it gave me hope that one day I could maybe just maybe get to the other side of anxiety. It was the first step!
I really believe that even if you don’t suffer from anxiety or depression, being in the moment is so important, we are all so busy. I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing, working, achieving and going all out to reach your goals, but if we don’t take a moment to just be present, to be with the people you love and to experience all the world has to offer then in the blink of an eye the time has gone.
So take that time for you, be with nature, be with the people you love, take that time to just breath and take back that control.
Mrs P xxxx