So as I start off the mind/ mental health section of my blog I wanted to share a little bit of my journey with anxiety and mental health. I was in two minds if I should share this or not, but I decided to for all those people who feel like their minds are lost in that place. I want people to know that there is hope, that you can get to the other side of anxiety and that you are absolutely not alone.
14 months ago today my life was in a different place. My anxiety levels were up, I had no idea what direction I wanted to go in life. One thing I knew for sure is that this was not going to be my story. In fact, why was this me? I am very happily married, have a beautiful little boy and love being a stay at home mom, but I just couldn’t shake this feeling in my stomach. How ungrateful I would think to myself, what is my problem?! Why can’t I just get myself together?!
The guilt was so intense. Every other part of my life was great, I knew I’m a good mom, a good wife and friend, but I just couldn’t shake this silent worry and fear of ‘what if?’. I actually remember in the past knowing people who were anxious about certain things, such as leaving the house, going in to social situations and not being able to understand why.
Often it isn’t until you walk a mile in someone’s shoes that you can truly empathise and relate to what they have been through. So here I was, in a similar position, unable to recognise parts of myself, feeling anxious, stressed and wondering how an earth I got to this place.
Something had to give. I decided to seek some guidance and let me tell you it was quite literally one of the most difficult things and retrospectively brave things I have done. I always had my life ‘together’, I didn’t like asking for help because usually I have everything under control and admitting this aspect of my life wasn’t in my control was a big deal. Looking back, I had no choice, I was not going to let anxiety define me and the only way to change the mind set was to educate myself how. So after much research on the subject I made the decision to see a hypnotherapist, it was one of the best decisions I have ever made.
My hypnotherapist not only helped me understand the root of where my anxiety come from but she helped teach my (very active) mind how to finally relax and also introduced me to the absolute power that is NLP. Its incredible how much of a change has been made, don’t get me wrong I have had to work at it, re-training the whole of my brain to not to constantly worry about ‘what might happen’ and ‘what if’, but I’m so excited about life and what there is to come.
I was so inspired by the transformation that occurred in my life that I am now re-training to be an NLP practitioner/ life coach and I’m so excited, it suits my path and combined with my past career in marketing and management I know I can make a positive difference in peoples lives. I never ever want people to feel how I felt and if I can give people back the feeling of joy that was returned to me then I will be extremely happy!
Id love to hear your experiences so please feel free to share below. I believe a community of like minded people can work together to raise each other up.
Mrs P xxx